When i pretend
everything is what i want it to be
i look exactly like what you had always wanted to see
When i pretend
i can forget about the criminal that i am
stealing second after second just cos i know i can
But i cant pretend thsi is the way it will stay
im just trying to bend the truth
i cant pretend im who you want me to be

i remember what you taught to me
remember condescending talk
of who i ought to be
remember listening to all of that and this again
so i pretended up a person who was fitting in
and now you think this person is really me
but the more i push im pulling away

no turning back now
i wanna be pushed aside
so LET ME GO
let me take back my life
id rather be all alone
anywhere on my own
cos i can see
the very worst part of you is me

im so tired. let me go.
id pay for my life full
in gold, in blood
just release me